Gosh it's been 6 months since I started my Google blog?!?! Wow. Where's the time gone? It's kind of funny cause after I made my first blog entry I totally forgot I had a blog...lol...sounds about right....That's definitely something I'd do.
I think it was about 3 months later I remembered lol....it just came to me. I remember I was cooking...probably dinner but forgot what it was. All of a sudden in the middle of my racing thoughts I said to myself, "I need to write another blog entry soon"....just as simple as that, as if it had been on my mind all the time. Lol crazy...well after that moment I've been so busy I hadn't had the chance to get my thoughts together to create a new one....& here I am tonight. Head full of thoughts, body aching, stiff neck, feel like the world is crashing down around me.... But...I finally remembered to do another entry lol
I think it was about 3 months later I remembered lol....it just came to me. I remember I was cooking...probably dinner but forgot what it was. All of a sudden in the middle of my racing thoughts I said to myself, "I need to write another blog entry soon"....just as simple as that, as if it had been on my mind all the time. Lol crazy...well after that moment I've been so busy I hadn't had the chance to get my thoughts together to create a new one....& here I am tonight. Head full of thoughts, body aching, stiff neck, feel like the world is crashing down around me.... But...I finally remembered to do another entry lol
So where have I been in the last 5 months? Well I've been home, mostly.
I've been tucked away in the safety of my home from the dangers that lurk outsie. Lol no but seriously....in the first 2 months since my last entry I was depressed, scared, worried, troubled, in excruciating pain etc...so I guess I sheltered myself from everything & everyone....sitting around home counting the days til tax return time & I can finally seek treatment for my fibro...Well the more I waited, the more depressed I got, the more my anxiety kicked in, then asthma attacks kicked in, migraines followed, pain & stiffness accompanied all of these. Stress induced stomach cramps & bathroom visits topped it all off. But the real kicker was that I'm a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) so there's a never ending supply of hours, minutes, & seconds in a day/week/month for me to drown myself in my worries; physical, mental, & emotional worries. Which in turn only makes the circumstances worse. You see, living with fibro makes it crazy difficult to get, & keep a job...any job...whether white or blue collar type...so it seemed that all I could was sit & sulk.
I've been tucked away in the safety of my home from the dangers that lurk outsie. Lol no but seriously....in the first 2 months since my last entry I was depressed, scared, worried, troubled, in excruciating pain etc...so I guess I sheltered myself from everything & everyone....sitting around home counting the days til tax return time & I can finally seek treatment for my fibro...Well the more I waited, the more depressed I got, the more my anxiety kicked in, then asthma attacks kicked in, migraines followed, pain & stiffness accompanied all of these. Stress induced stomach cramps & bathroom visits topped it all off. But the real kicker was that I'm a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) so there's a never ending supply of hours, minutes, & seconds in a day/week/month for me to drown myself in my worries; physical, mental, & emotional worries. Which in turn only makes the circumstances worse. You see, living with fibro makes it crazy difficult to get, & keep a job...any job...whether white or blue collar type...so it seemed that all I could was sit & sulk.
Well by the 3rd month I decided that I needed to do something...I set out to find online work. This wasnt my first attempt. Probably my 1,000th attempt to find a legit mlm programs to do from home.
Well I found a couple...but got nowhere...not cause they're not legit...but cause they're very difficult to do without a team effort. Then I found a super cool group of people on fb. Just gonna give a quick shout out to Angie, Jennie, Jason, Aston, & John over @ Networkers Unlimited group on Facebook.
Anyhoo so I've been crazy busy with them working my butt off online & getting ready for this super exciting program to launch this week.
Well I found a couple...but got nowhere...not cause they're not legit...but cause they're very difficult to do without a team effort. Then I found a super cool group of people on fb. Just gonna give a quick shout out to Angie, Jennie, Jason, Aston, & John over @ Networkers Unlimited group on Facebook.
Anyhoo so I've been crazy busy with them working my butt off online & getting ready for this super exciting program to launch this week.
So for the last 3 months that's where I've been...staying busy. Still struggling with my pains, migraines, anxiety, restlessness, depression, brain fog, racing thoughts etc. But at least now I don't feel so alone.. I'm not sitting & sulking anymore. I've made many great connections along the way, lost a couple connections but that's for the best.
Now when I say I was sulking, let's not over exaggerate it & assume I was literally sitting at home everyday saying things like "oh poor me, I'm so ill, poor me I'm sore," etc...lol no it wasn't like that...I was speaking figuratively....but in reality it's kinda hard not to notice the pain & other associated feelings...in fact it's nearly impossible to ignore. But only someone going through it would know...most just cant grasp it !!!....oh well...it's my fight not theirs.
& that concludes my blog about the Last 6 months...hopefully I'll remember to do another entry sooner this time lol
